The 5 letter word...Guilt

I saw my therapist today. It was a good session and it was well needed by me. Now that the summer is here, chances to be "lissa" take a back seat and so does the opportunity to find time to talk to my significant others, spouse, family and friends. Because of the delay, it allows for bad feelings to catch up with me on my journey. The worst of these speeding cars is GUILT. It is the great DE-motivator. It can put your gas tank on empty very quickly.
My mind plays the tape over and over...."but if I disclose my ultimate need to transition, I'll be responsible for ruining lives, breaking up a marriage, embarrassing my loved ones." I'd like to hear how others may be dealing or have dealt with it.
The good news is that in order to feel guilty one must have feelings for others.(yucka-yucka)

The Bruins are Champs!

Throughout my life I have always been a fan of Boston sports teams. I've seen the Red Sox, Patriots, and Celtics win championships. The Boston Bruins have always had a special place for me. I grew up a fan of Bobby Orr and the Big, Bad Bruins. I lived and died with them season after season. In 1971, they were stopped by Montreal and a rookie goalie named Ken Dryden. In 1978 they lost in the finals to Montreal. The following year they lost a game 7 semifinal to Montreal when they drew a penalty late in the game for having too many men on the ice. (Can you guys count?).
Another finals loss to Edmonton and then the downward spiral to be out of the playoffs. It was painful to see Ray Bourque be sent to Colorado so that he could have a chance to win a cup (and he did!).
This team this year was redeeming. Tim Thomas, the "turtle" of goaltending ( for his falling flopping style almost as if he was spinning upside down on a shell), just ridiculous! Zdeno Chara, Lucic, Marchand, Paille, Ference, Peverley, Seguin (the future star), Cambpell, Kaberle, Seidenberg, Kelly, Ryder, Rask, Hnidy, McQuaid, Boychuk, Kampfer, Krejci (a leader in the postseason scoring)... Nate Horton and Marc Savard who were inspirations; Thornton and Recchi who knew what winning the cup was all about; and especially Patrice Bergeron--a draft choice from whom much was expected and now has returned dividends. The coach Claude Julien, who weathered the storms of many of us who were not always in sync with his style of play. He and his assistants brought in a type of play that the players bought into and it stands as a winning formula.
What I like most about this win is that I am writing not just as a fan, but a transgendered fan! I could not have admitted that in 1970 or 1972, and I am proud to say that now. No shame in admitting who you are.
Play the game and have fun...Tim Thomas' recipe for success...let's apply to living everyday!