One foot in front of the other

Even though we in the northeast are predicted for snow on the first of April (right, an april fool's joke!), the month ahead holds great promise for me. At my therapy session, which I talked about on my last blog, I was well supported. I will be able to live as lissa for most of my non-working hours. My therapist and I scheduled our next session for that week as well. Before I could ask if I could dress as lissa at the office she asked if I would come to the session as lissa.
Today at work, I could not excape the thoughts of what I would wear, and what I would need. It is like the anticipation of Christmas, the season of presents, presenting to others and peace. Peace. That is what this trip is about. I am now 54 and yearn for inner peace, to be whole.
April, 2011, marks the continuance of that journey. There will be hills and valleys. But in the end, I need to seek peace.
Do you remember the scene in "Dirty Harry", when Harry tells the thief about his magnum and he isn't sure if he shot 5 bullets or 6, and he asks the famous question, "Do you feel lucky?" The thief gives up. But he isn't finished so he says to Harry that he has got to know ( if all the bullets fired or there is one left). That is the big
question for me about being trans....I got to know. I long for peace.

Another development

Tomorrow I have another therapy session. In April, I will be at the house without interruption. My wife heads to Aruba to visit a friend. I need to work to earn more vacation time for later this year. So I will have lissa time after 5pm every night. Tomorrows session will be dedicated to talking about this and working on pushing lissa out in public. April is beginning to look like a very interesting month....