Life goes on. It seems that more and more of my free time is caught up with the idea of coming out or perhaps, "coming clean". I take walks for exercise which gives me time to think. It is when I have time to focus on myself. There is no escaping my gender identity issue. Most of my day, it is there. I am at work, speaking with a coworker, and suddenly it hits me..."What if I disclosed the real me to them RIGHT NOW!"
Watching TV with my wife, and trying to plan what to say is common.
Being in the bathroom, preparing to take a shower, evokes wished as I undress. Lord, change me NOW! It is always the same...nothing happens.
Time continues to tick and the game clock never adds seconds. Something will happen soon. I am very patient and I will wait until the right moment. Eli anning or Tom Brady know when to let the football go sailing down the field. That time is coming.
As I age day to day I also seem to feel less fear about revealing lissa.
Maybe tomorrow? Next month? Soon!
